So Much to Do and So Little Time to Say It.

So it's been ages since my last post. Well, other than that comic con link, which isn't really a post.

Let's get to business. Not much in terms of philosophy here to dish out. What I've been doing lately includes teaching myself Spanish, a new exercise regiment, and writing (boy do I have a story for this one).

Spanish is pretty straight forward. I want to learn it. Being it is my third time learning it, I'm hoping my desire for it, rather than the prerequisites that it fulfilled, will be the deciding factor in whether or not it sticks this time.

With the new exercise regiment, it's a 90 day deal which puts me to a 50min avg workout everyday, and has thus far kicked my ass. Within 4 days I've lost 1 belt notch, which puts me back to where I was most of my life--I wasn't that bad. I'm sure most of that notch was water weight, but I'm also sure at least a good portion of it was fat.

As for the writing. Well now...something I never saw myself doing is now something I'm near obsessed with. I say this with some reluctance, a whole lot of humility, and yet with a security in the knowledge that no one actually reads this blog...yet. I'm actually writing an erotica.

What do I consider "an erotica?" Well to paraphrase that without a euphemism, Erotica is essentially written porn. The internet is filled with porn but my problem with the majority of it is that it's simply trash. I know, I know: One man's trash... My point is I think it's trashy. With videos you get really aggressive/impersonal sex acts and girls I don't find attractive. Literature does away with the "unattractive girl" problem, as it leaves her looks up to my imagination. The trash on the other-hand, is still there to sift through; however, this is basically why I've decided to pick up setting my-own standard. My efforts are put into making it sexy (now there's a word I almost never use) as well as classy. In my head, that translates to a storyline that revolves around the sex, equally to sex that revolves around the story. Additionally, none of my characters keep to the over abundance of foul language used in most porn, written or "visual."

Now, don't get me wrong: this is still porn, so there will be a presence of cocks, cunts (I don't so much like the P word, but will occasionally use it due to the audience I'm writing for), and cumming in the story. That aside, I do everything I can to make this fantasy girl someone I could crush on if I am a reader, let alone if I lived in that reality. There is a certain kind and degree of a fetish involved (one must take care in how the word "fetish" is interpreted here, as I very deliberately use it with ambiguity), so it's not just simple couplings/flirtation, as that's too normal and in my eyes defeats the purpose of "fiction." With all of this considered, I think it's coming out to be quite the standout kind of erotic fiction, relatively speaking. We'll see how it's received by an audience once it's done.

Boy am I gonna get flack for this hobby if this blog ever gets read.

Before I go, I'd like to concede to not having learned my lesson from earlier, which is to put a little more effort into focusing myself and my development. It's a small tsk tsk on me, but right now I'm doing what feels right, and I'm happy with it so I'm gonna leave this at that.

Many Nights DTC,

Addison.